there's somnething yg tetiba cross my mind...kenapa bukan diriku??...td ak usah fb mamat ni...someone yg bleh kata ak strt nk suka...ermmm...dont ask who ok...n apa yg sgt mengejutkn...dia dh ada GF!!!!!...what???...ari tu single lg...sekelip mata dh bpunya...ok then...itu makna ny saya kena padam nama dia la kn lps ni...no more him....
what i realize is...through out my almost 20 years of life....i think love is never meant to be with me...yeah...i been single for 20 years...and every time i strted to like someone...someone yg single ok...hai tetiba dtg org lain plak kn...so tpaksa la lupa kn...saya xnk rampas org pny k...im not that desperate to amek someone bf or husband or wateva....
sedey oo...but i never told this to anyone..not even my friend even im broken hearted skali pon...malu sebenar ny...ye la...im not that pretty...so i think xdk sapa pon yg nk kn i kn...xdk apa yg menarik dlm diriku ini...n i think they deserved someone better than me...even kalu ada org nk kenen2 kn pon...i try to avoid...because im not someone that always get what i want...i xnk kecewa...so i really try my best to avoid falling in love...honestly i tell u...love is really not for me...
yeah...mmg sometimes tu jealous tgk org lain dating or gayut lma2..tp apa nk bt...i xnk kn....i tkt i kecewa....better for me to stay single n have fun with my friends n family...i still have them that really love me...seriously...being single for 20 years...i dh kisah dh whether i ada bf or not...i akan kawen or not...btol sy xkisah...tp naluri manusia kn...ingin dicintai dan mencintai...hehehe..yeah harapan tu still ada...but then like i said...i xkisah...ada or xdk...
so cinta bukan untuk diriku....
akk fhm apa yg adik alami. jiwa org muda mmg begitu dan itulah cabaran yg harus adik hadapi. JANGAN RISAU + JGN MERENDAH DIRI terhadap cinta.cinta akn dtg dgn sendirinya TETAPI perlu ada sedikit usaha.pedulikan org sekeliling yg bercintan-cintun. YAKIN bahawa ALLAH dah sediakan someone 4 u..
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